Im sick and tired of feeling like shit, feeling guilty, feeling so fucking hurt...

I didnt do anything to deserve this fucking pain!

I was honest, and thoughtful... and i get hurt in the end... because i had to hurt someone so it wasnt as bad in the end... Im sorry i fall in love with someone else besides him...

... My heart is fucking broken because of all this fucking SHIT!
I just wanna cry...

Im the cause of all his pain... but i didnt do ANYTHING to hurt him..

But no... he says i did it on purpose! Yeh, cuz i try to break peoples hearts all the fucking time. I love the kid to death... he is my best friend... I thought he loved me enough to understand that my heart fell for someone else... But i guess not.

It feels like he is doing this to me on purpose... cuz he thinks i did it to him... NO! I DIDNT!!



::I wanna run away, never say goodbye. I wanna know the truth, instead of wondering why. I wanna know the answers, no more lies. I wanna shut the door, and open up my mind.::

:: Dont know who to trust, no surprise. Everyone feels so far awat from me. Heavy thoughts sift through dust, and the lies. Trying not to break, but im so tired of this deceit. Everytime i try to make myself, get back up on my feet. All i ever think about is this, all the tiring time between. And how, trying to put my trust in you, just takes so much out of me. I take everything from the inside, and throw it all away. Cuz i swear, for the last time, i wont trust myself in you.::

::I wanna be in another place, i hate when you say you dont understand.::